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You were beautiful, you still are, and I can`t believe you doubted that. No, don`t worry, I`m not emasculating you, beautiful can also be used for guys. I always told you you were and I was surprised you weren`t aware of it. When we were together, I`d stare at you and try to memorize your features. I was satisfied, you see, just looking at you. I`ve never spent that much time observing a person since whenever I wasn`t with you, I wanted your face, your memory, your presence locked inside my brain. And your words, locked in my heart. Your simple presence overwhelmed me. You just don`t know it but I`ve learned even the simplest things about you when we were together and every bit of it, I loved.